Test 4

Have you ever woke up feeling something heavy in your chest and you can’t really put the name to this emotion? 

I woke up one morning and found myself thinking I don’t know what or how I am feeling right now but I know that this is not a good or pleasant feeling. This is not something new. Although it is not my predominant state, I have felt like this from time to time. Normally I would immediately come up with a solution or happy distractions whenever I feel negative emotions since I am a positive and happy person. I feel like I am not myself whenever I experience negative emotions and I have a variety of tools — from the spiritual teachings to the Youtube videos of adorable puppies — in my emotional toolbox to experience positive feelings. But this particular morning was different. For some reason, I was curious about this heavy feeling in my chest. Instead of finding ways to get rid of this unpleasant emotion, something deeper inside me wanted to know more about what I was feeling… and more importantly where this feeling would take me.

I thought to myself what if these so-called “negative” feelings want to be loved, acknowledged, and fully seen by me in the same way as the positive feelings such as joy and peace. After all, they are also part of me and part of the human experience. 

I wonder.. when it comes to unpleasant or negative emotions, why are we so eager to fix them or get rid of them so quickly? So, I decided to stay with this feeling for however long they want to be there instead of trying to get rid of them with my creative quick fixes. I was terrified but I told myself it is ok not to feel good or happy all the time. 

Every day, we go through a range of emotions yet we are so afraid to acknowledge the negative feelings we experience.  

Maybe and just maybe… we can appreciate positive emotions like joy, peace, and optimism more if we allow and honor the “unpleasant” emotions instead of trying to get rid of them with quick fixes and shortcuts. 

What if these feelings are the signs that tell us to do something different? What if these feelings are the communication from your deeper self or your soul trying to tell you to find more meaning in your life? What if these so-called darker emotions are the doorway to experiencing the light brighter than we have ever witnessed before? After all, how can we appreciate the light without the darkness? What if these feelings are giving us an opportunity to connect with people in our lives in deeper and more meaningful ways? What if these emotions are the signs from our inner spiritual self saying now it’s time to transform or evolve to a higher dimension? The dimension beyond our imagination.